tools for the journey – Sarah's Table

Try as I might, I cannot pry my emotions, spirit, mind, and heart apart. I want to address each separately, and truthfully, ignore some altogether, but all the components that make up ME affect each other, whether I like it or not.

When I’ve had a tough week emotionally, I’m going to need a nap on Sunday.

When I’ve been ignoring that I even have a spirit, I’m going to find it hard to resist eating all the food I don’t actually enjoy.

This is always true, but exacerbated over the holidays with added festivities, expectations, and food everywhere.

I want to live healthy, whole, and free over this season.

Not living perfectly.

Not perpetually resisting the sweets I pass by every day, only to run out of willpower and dive in, head first.

But living with care for who I am physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

Even during what tends to be a busier season.

Healthy, whole, and free. I want it for me, and I want it for as many people as possible.

I’ve been doing some battle this week.

I can’t really tell you why. Maybe it’s my declaration of change that’s left me susceptible, maybe it’s bathing suit season that leaves the parts of my body I pick on the most out in the open, maybe it’s upcoming change…

Whatever it’s been, I’ve been putting in some major effort to screw my head on straight.

I’ve been digging into my Wellness Revelation workbook- a great place to work toward healthy, whole, and free.

I’ve been listing to the Rev Well podcast; there is plenty of gold in there. This particular sentiment is burned on my brain and my current motivation: you can look for beauty in a clothing size, but just know if you do, it’s going to hurt her [your daughter].

I’ve been journaling.

I’ve been working it out at Barre3– I really like to do my praying and processing while my body is in motion (moving is so good for our brains and hearts!)

I’ve been soaking up Insta stories from Kara of Wellness Witness.

I want to live healthy, whole, and free, but when I see transformation photos of people I love while I’m already feeling vulnerable, I also want to focus my efforts on my squishy belly and my sturdy thighs. As if If I could just “fix” those, I’d feel better and be better.

Let me take a moment to remember what I know to be true:

-Counting things (calories, pounds, grams) is a life-stealer for me. I can’t do it AND be healthy, whole, and free.

-I want to be healthy, whole, and free. I want that for my kids. And for anyone reading this blog.

-Living according to those goals has presented more of a fight than I really anticipated, but the pursuit has been worth it. For sure.

-Bonus? I feel so much better in my skin, even when nothing on the outside has changed.

One step at a time, Friends.